In your face

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Allow me to ramble.

Wheres the comforting hug that you need when you are in a pool of emotions?

Where are the words that you need to hear?

And no, this has nothing to do with a fucking broken heart. This has to do with the lost of my minidigital olympus camera. Well not mine exactly, but my dads. So. Baba is gona come home from flight, tired after long hours of flying from here to there.. and I, his daughter has to break the news of me being careless..losing the camera in which he adores so much and thinks is the sexiest camera he has ever seen. The camera in which he first saw and said, " Ah! That one. Its mine, mine!" .. and holding it close to his chest. The camera in which he puts trust in me to take charge and care of and The camera in which I just taught him how to use a couple of hours ago so that he could bring it on his 2 week trip. Yes. But now, its gone and is in some strangers hand.

I know that this is a materialistic object and wont matter in the after life but we not only have to deal with it, we have to deal with emotions! I definitely feel guilty, very very guilty and shitty. And I would do anything not to make my parents unhappy. And I cant bear to look into my dads eyes later on but I have to so that he knows how sorry I am.

I should get him a replacement for his trip and I want to get him a new camera.

I, have never felt this shitty in a very long time.

Life certainly has it weird ways of ups and downs. Welcome to the rollercoaster ride that never stops till it is accidentally flunked off the track and that my friend, is the end of the world. So, gdbye.

And so she sighs.

- Lifes been a bit on the down side.
rambled by AiS at 3:33 AM

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