In your face

Monday, September 26, 2005

fuck you, blogger.

im sick of you redirecting your pages and then god knows what happened to my entry!! thank you for deleteting one of the most well written and open entry to my emotions. i dont care if you're just a blog but making my entry vanishing is like dismissing me. And that entry did meant something to me. stupid. i know me cursing this.. this syaitan thing is funny coz i laughed after i read it. but still!! MY entry vanishing in thin air is NOT funny.

lets get into details and mak e it fast! my heart ached and i let out a controlled sob when I saw this hysterical depressed patient wailing loudly in the ward. I felt very sad and I felt like giving her a fierce comforting hug that I hope would take away all that shes going through just for the moment. I was affected by her and I am feeling very down. And I said just now in vanished entry that i dont think it would be healthy for me to let such things affect me that much. I must learn to be in more control of my emotions. However of course I dont wish to be as hard as a stone. NO WAY.

And I also said in the vanished entry that, i know theres something else bothering me. But, I do not know what.

Little little things being bottled up and the little little things get lost in the bottle. And when you question yourself about whats bothering you. You have no answer for that. You simply shrugged and it hurts, coz you dont know. And not knowing something sucks. Especially not knowing your ownself. Its not good to be clueless. hahh.

Well i said something like that. Oh and also..

The solution to the bottling up would be.. to break the bottle and tackle the little things one thing at a time or you could simply believe that what you are going through is just the raging teenagerish hormones moment.

I would obviously choose the later. Oh and that is something that I strongly believe in. Call it fortunate or unfortunate. Again, I dont know.

AND i also dont know what has become of this stupid entry which is NOTHING compared to my previous entry. But you do get the picture do you. Yah dats it, right now I do feel slightly worst coz this is not the exact entry as just now and this is not the best that my entry can be. And yes, I am particular about it. Who isnt?

Thanks for reading tho my lovelies. A kiss for all.

blogger, you bitch.

- pardon me for my language
rambled by AiS at 7:05 PM

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