In your face

Friday, March 10, 2006

Life is weird.

I am contented with a book, a bed, loads of pillows, sunlight, and an airy room.

Other than that, I couldnt care less so leave me alone seriously ( well not literally aloneee but like dont bother me with unnecessary things lah ) . I dont appreciate problems which i dont think i deserve to face, I dont think as much as i used to coz i realise im a teenager and I am supposedly to be blooody care free.

Theres no point thinking so much coz u get to no where in the end. Theres no point caring so much coz people wouldnt care as much. Theres no point holding on coz nobody will ever hold on as much as you do.

People drift. Life drift. Even a material object like a boat drifts!

To hell with teenage crap for I am as uncomplicated as the grasses which never fail to grow every day. Sometimes they get dried up, sometimes they reach out for the sun. So yes, ERGH.

I am a person of my own coz its easier that way! I do not like having strings restraining me causing me to struggle.

I do as I please, I act as I please coz...I AM AISHA!

And I am being defiant here. What, is there a need for an explanation?! Cant you people learn to accept shit and NOT backfire the person? Damn you if you cant. Pathetic. If others can do so for you why cant you do so for them in return. Selfish! Pig!

We humans are entitled to be self centred and egocentric at times so I AM taking my portion.

I am sick of caring for others who dont give a flying saucer in return.

I know I am known to be always looking at the bright side of things but eff it! WE humans have our ups and downs and moodswings so LET ME HAVE IT OK!

I hate all you selfish assholes out there. I am ANGRY and i have EVERY RIGHT TO POUR IT OUT IN MY FREAKING BLOG AND IF U DONT LIKE IT, darling.. u can go away. snort.

Grrr... i feel so angrrrry.

And before any of you self centred monsters think Im refering to anybody again, think twice! Coz im angry on a general term and speaking on a general term. I jus had enough on how life tends to throw the same old shit at my direction. What, do i look like a dumping ground?! When are the flowers ever going to grow and the stink from the hole ever begone!

Am i not nice enough to deserve what I think I should deserve or at least, am i not nice enough to NOT be given any shit that i faced/face/will be facing?

Am i NOT good enough to deserve a simple, nice, uncomplicated friendship? This involves boys/girls.

Tell me tell me, i just DONT understand. And yes, this is another portion to why Im fed up with life.

omgg this is like years of negativity kept in me.
events after events, chapters after chapters..i just kept storing.
i think my coke bottle has burst. haha i feel like falling into a fit of giggles.

I like random thoughts, random questions. I like how my mind wanders and thinks of the unexpected. I like how I get amazed when my mind subconsciously roam and I land up with a sudden thought/realisation. I like how nothing bothers me. I like how I dont have to think about problems.

But i dont like it when i stare blankly into space and my vision blur and my mind is literally blocked and shut down.

Im just blabbing all thats on my mind, out. Have fun messing with my diarrhea of thoughts, emotions.

Okay hrmptttt!

And she stomps out of here, without a smile..

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rambled by AiS at 12:31 AM

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