Just shut up, and listen
She cries, she laughs
She screams, she rambles
All sorts of emotions, you must acknowledge
Acceptance&Nonjudgmental is what she ask to adhere
Abide by the rules, and you may stay.
Otherwise, leave.
Now.. smile with me.
Boring is the word
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Thursday, March 01, 2007 My heart hurts whenever i cough.Hello all. I finally got to meet Souher, it was so lovely seeing her again! And, wahhh I miss the nursies alot uh! But, me nana and ain kechik met. Hehehee. We were like little kids experimenting with all the kiddie playground. The most fun, I or we must say is the spiderweb! Which i dont think its so kiddy after all. It would be too challenging for little ones. Hahahah!  On a completely different note, this is the reason why I came here to blog. I feel lost, I feel confused, I feel scared, I feel guilty, I feel sad, YET I feel a tinge of relief. I hate it when things have to come in this direction. It makes everything all the more hazy. And I especially dont like it when people barge in, forming rude judgements, and rubbish perceptions. I am not whatever you think I am. Just becos I happen to be in such a position often does not make me that sort of girl. I do not enjoy hurting anybdy, nor do I enjoy pushing .. people away especially if they happen to be one of a kind. As selfish as it sounds, yes I am talking about myself and how its bloody affecting me. Cos its been a long run and Im tired having to deal. And this was like the last straw cos that particular person happens to be very special in his own ways. But no, what do I do? Hurt and push. And for that, i do not fancy myself. Because, such a person do not deserve this. Good, the tears have dried. For now maybe. Omg this is so kental. I hate having to blog for the entire world to bloody see and yak and be kpo, but my body is achin all over so i cant write. And i just need a reservoir to let it out. And i doubt anybody will ever understand me and my thoughts. Thats why I am here and not talking to anybody. Theres no point. And why bother people about my so called stupid reasonings and conclusions. Okie no, the bloody dam is still open. God, will you stop it Aisha. This is irritating me. Why in the world am I breaking? I DONT BREAK! Okie, i do break but not often at all. Goodness, i feel like shit. And i just want to go under my covers to hide, to block everything out. Tell me, how can someone understand you when you yourself dont really understand yourself much? Maybe I dont exactly really know what I want, maybe its not the right time for me, maybe its not the right pair, maybe I am scared, maybe I should just stop and think, maybe I shouldnt let this get to me much, maybe I should just breathe. Too many maybes, with no certainties.
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