In your face

Saturday, September 01, 2007

Im bloated, constipated and i feel bloody fat! And unpretty.

And im ONLY 18. Shutup, im not 19 yet ok. ergh.

I had Operating Theatre posting for 1 week. It was damn cool. Ive seen small,large intestines, layers of fats, muscles, interior&superior vena cava, uterus, fallopian tube, ovaries, round ligament, stomach, bones, spleen, bladder,litres of blood, fibroids, cyst, omentum. Ive went through 6-8 caesarean section, a couple of laparoscopic/open cystectomy, polymectomy, laser circumcision, removal of nodes.

I love the slicing of knife to skin and to see the skin split;rich red blood flowing out. Call me a sadist but its DAMN cool. Seriously! The human body is amazingggg.

But, no dont think i will be going back to the OT. Dont want to risk getting screwed upside down inside out. There would be so freaking much to learn. You as a scrub nurse must know the process of the surgery itself in order to anticipate which instrument you have to pass to the surgeon in order for the surgery to go smoothly and not have the surgeon, if by all means he/she is a horrible,impatient homosapien to be grumbling and sneering at you or even your not-so-kind colleagues to be complaining and bitching about your lack of efficiency and blur-sotongness to the max. There is not just 10 or 20 instruments, but MORE! Much much more. You have to be fast and be able to think prior to surgery and have a memory the size of ... more than your brains. Hmmm.. it would actually be very challenging and fun, then again.. i dont really know which department I want to go so yeahh.. ok! Continuing..
Not only do you have to be by the surgeon's side but ahhh im so lazy to mention more. Hehe. Not like as if you buggers are interested right?

Afterall, alot of people.. generally mind you, are so patheticly ignorant to the role of a Staff Nurse and so blind to our barrel of knowledge and skills. And so much in doubt in our capabilities and abilities.

Dont dare place us so low and below. Cos you dont know shit.

Then again, i am so not qualified and ready to be a staff nurse.. yet. Even though Ive completed my academic modules. I still lack the confidence and charisma of a staff nurse. And Im always far too shy to approach the "high-er authorities" thus seemingly to have a certain lack of, what do they call it? Initiative.

So there, i suck in my clinical field cos I take time to adjust to environmental changes.. or any kind of changes for that matter.

Ok! Finally a breath of drama and rafi tomorrow :)

i still. feel. fat

Gd night!

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rambled by AiS at 12:34 AM

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