In your face

Sunday, November 04, 2007

OKAY, to those who will be as blur as Ilham, what you are going to read was what I blogged in December 2006

Maybe its time i turn to blogger instead of my black book.

I have been involved in drama eversince i was 13 years old.

The passion just keeps burning and burning. My desires overpower my thoughts. My thoughts dampen my spirits eventually.

If i was given the chance, i would drop everything; fall even deeper and let myself free/crazy in
the world of arts.i love everything about stage acting!

The memorising of lines, experimenting with emotions, different facial expressions, tone variation, movement, that dramatic pause, that silent overpowering, commanding effect, hair-rising moments, adrenalin pumping feel throughout your body, just that.. feeling, it gives me! to be there! acting, on stage!that amazing! extraordinary! mind-blowing! heart pounding! pore bursting! cell rupturing! molecule raging! out of this worldddddd.. feeling!faints.

i literally CAN go crazy when it comes to drama.It is my drug.

So since, i cant just drop everything after graduating, cant just break my bond with KKH, cant just focus on acting as a career.. i shall just do freelance acting!But hah! With a fulltime staff nurse schedule? You got to be kidding me.Impossible means I am possible.So, we shall see yeah.

Now, ive got to focus on StageArts since I am now the Head of Drama. OMGGGGGGGG. I am THE Head Of Drama. haha! I think it finally sinked in. Tsk. I mean I acknowledge I am, I think? But well..ah..Okay! lets not sidetrack.Yes yes, I pledge to do my best, to serve and to guide, to shape and to train the lovely people of StageArts Drama to be an all rounded actor/actresses.

full of shit i know, dont blame me its 0250. But I promise, I will do my very best to carry out my role the best that I possibly can.im supposed to finish studying about the male reproductive system but look! i am here, typing my distracted thoughts.

damnit, now i miss drama and the people. nvm, wednesday i shall embrace both together!i am not crazy, i am just passionate.bye.

- That was December 2006, last year when I first got my post as The Head of Drama of StageArts 2006/2007. Today is the 4th of November 2007. And, within a months time... I will be passing down soon. Damn, why does this have to be so emotional? I should just cherish the couple of days I have left and stretch it as best as I can.

But, I might not be able to do as much for I will be busy and stress with PRCP (imp. attachment). BUT, that's not going to stop me, prevent me, block me, wall me, box me from giving my all.

Re-reading the post, felt like I wrote it only... yesterday.

Argh, I need to prepare for A&E placing tomo and PRCP. I'm not ready, I've not started revising. Everything's sinking in and, I would love to stop time. I need to embrace the new life ahead of me. I need to learn to accept how things are going to be.

Pppffkkkt, it's time to grow up... soon.

I don't want to grow up. But, i have to.

The stage helps me to fulfill certain dreams & desires that my mind keeps on playing. I was finally a Goddess, an eccentric one. Thats why, I love acting. I get to be all that I want to be.

I want to be, everything. I want to experience, everything. And I want to do, everything.

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rambled by AiS at 4:14 PM

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