Just shut up, and listen
She cries, she laughs
She screams, she rambles
All sorts of emotions, you must acknowledge
Acceptance&Nonjudgmental is what she ask to adhere
Abide by the rules, and you may stay.
Otherwise, leave.
Now.. smile with me.
Boring is the word
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Saturday, March 21, 2009 I am light, I am free, I am colourful, I am magical, I am beautiful.You are light, You are free, You are colourful, You are magical, You are beautiful. We are light, We are free, We are colourful, We are magical, We are beautiful. Feel your heart at ease, feel the inner peace. Feel the strength, feel the flow within your body. Feel the beauty. I want to be all that I can be. ----------------- There was a moment yesterday, or was it the day before.. I cant recall. I was affected by what I saw, affected by my environment. Im not exactly great at expressing myself, neither am I great at talking about how I feel. I always tend to see things at a bird point of view, always see two different sides to a situation so sometimes Im afraid I might sound like a walking contradiction. Haha! Anyway, thats not the point! The point is, as much as I try not to allow getting affected by what I see in NICU which is if you dont know, is Neonatal Intensive Care unit.. I still do get affected by it but I would just keep it in and deal with it the silent way. The babies there are really in a critically ill condition. It's really saddening. Babies are so innocent and pure, so its very heartbreaking to see all these tubes sticking into their nose, mouth, umbilical cord, hands, legs, anus. Imagine they are so small and yet they have so many invasive things going into their body. Imagine they are so ill that they cant even cry. They look at you with such sad eyes. After a procedure, they will literally look exhausted. But because the ventilator keep them going, their body will just keep on functioning. Whenever theres an emergency situation, it gets my heart rate running, my blood pressure will shoot up, a panicky feeling will escape me, i will feel faint, worried, pressured, tensed, messy. All messy in my head and heart. But I have to learn to overcome that. I have to learn as much as I can so that I can provide the best care for them. I have to do all within my means for their benefit. To give them as much love and care to aid in their recovery and growth. Alhamdullilah I am in this department, because I guess.. my heart will never turn into stone while nursing. okay i got to go, this is a very messy entry. -
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